I have spent the last few days remembering the times we spent together. Going over in my head our phone conversations, visits, discussions, and bouts of laughter. I cannot remember a time where I could not call you up and talk, cry, laugh or ask advise. This is one of the most painful moments in my life.
The others knew you when they were kids, I was very privileged to know you as an adult.
We talked about the importance of family, friends, children and grandchildren. We played games and drank and laughed like old friends. Now when I visit you I feel helpless, there is nothing I can do to fix or ease your condition. I feel raw, I hurt, I rage, I cry, I feel helpless and I must keep it in check. Life, children and obligations do not go away because I feel bad.
I love you. I hurt for you. I miss you. I miss your voice, I miss our conversations that lasted for hours.. I miss drinking and laughing till our eyes just watered.
I hope your journey to the next place is painless, peaceful and filled with love ...
So ... With tears streaming down my face....I send this into the void....
